Thursday 14th January 2010, 00:30am The time i begin to think, actually I miss the one who was good to me...

[I appologise in advance if the structure and grammar of this post is quite bad. I'm just ranting]
Looks like judgements really can be incorrect. Maybe I was blinded by the fact it was somebody new. I don't know. A lyric by Get Cape Wear Cape Fly comes to mind, '..fall in love, with the idea of being in love.' It screams true in this instance...
It turns out that maybe this new guy isn't all he cracked up to be and actually while I type these words I begin to realise, my friends weren't totally struck on him from the start. Harsh...
It amazes me how a boy can ring you up at 2.30 am and tell you how you deserve better, and tell you about all the things he regrets etc... and here's me 'I'll give you a chance'
'Just one?'
'No, i'll give you more than one.'
More than one chance to do what? Cross the line of texting my best friend when you've had a few and try flirting with her? That's what you did! and now you're gutted I called you on it.
Well, there's one chance already gone mate. She thought we were a good match, but now she's trying to talk me out of bothering with you and now I don't know what to think. Now what? Well, now I start crying when I remember how I first felt about my ex when we met up in starbucks every weekend. Wonderful.

Sunday 10th January 2010, The day i realise, actually i'll be ok whoever pops into my life.

Annoying memoirs of '09
-I broke up with someone who was ...nice... two months ago. [wow, two months?] I was gutted, it wasn't out of choice but we both had to admit, our craic was dying.

-Theres always this other person who seems to pop into my life at inconvenient times, then when I realise that he's there, he gets back with the same tall, pretty girl he's been with on and off for two years. 'PLAYER' I hear my friends say, but to be honest i've grown tired of him and his inability to write absolute nonsense EVERY TIME he sends a text. His craic is appealing, but he's annoyed me now. I have always liked him sometimes more, sometimes less, but he seems to be either with this girl one minute and not the next.... whatever. My 2 year 'crush' has died, now, in January 2010. Phew, Im so glad it is over..

Present day, Jan 2010

It's odd how you start liking someone all of a sudden, even when you have known them for years isnt it? For once, i'm not basing this LAD on who we both knock about with. Or what colour his hair is. Or if he supports Newcastle FC. Or if he lives near enough.
This time, he makes me smile. Genuinely smile. It's funny, because while he has his flaws and hurt from past relationships, i'm pushing it aside. For once i'm not in a rush and it's really nice. An hour and a half drive away isn't too far. Plus he likes Vivienne Westwood.... That's always a plus. :D